ALSO, I'm quitting coles as soon as I update my resume, I'm so haaaaaaappy!

I had to go to the doctors again today, bleeeh I hate that place. Anyways they don't know what's wrong with me so I have to get an ultrasound on my kidneys on Friday -___- He also gave me some medicine so hopefully that works and I don't feel like shit all the time D;

Apart from that I didn't do anything today. Except went shopping with mum for cereal and cat food. I spose that was a good thing though since I FINALLY found the confectionary aisle in safeway :DDD I seriously had no idea that safeway had one, it was like hidden from me or something :l

Jaker still has my owl ring so I spose i'll have to buy a new one, D: which is slightly annoying but eh, whatever trevor, :) Hopefully I'll be doing something more productive tomorrow, there's not much holidays left as everyone keeps informing me :(

I love how my little dog comes into my room, even though it's like, the hottest room in the house, jumps up onto my bed, snuggles next to me and goes to sleep. She's such a cutie :3 but it really is too hot for snuggles,,

formspring me, :D
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Well, jake came to visit. And now things are screwed over with everything. What's worse is that I know I'm doing the wrong thing here, but I'm not doing anything about it. I hurt the person I love the most and now .. I don't know.
What now ?

what are we s'posed to call this year ? "oh ten"? "ten"? whatever. i know it's gunna be a shit year anyyway. year eleven with no 'proper' best friend, hardly any friends. all i have is my boyfriend who will hopefully not start hating on me any time soon, or ever for that matter. i practically cried a river on him yesterday when he came back from queensland, i missed having a bestfriend around so much.
im gunna make a looooooooot of mistakes this year. and prolly hurt some people. i can feel it already. and i dont like it at all. maybe that's just my current apathetic mood influencing eveything im feeling right now. i dont know. all i know is that 2009 was shit, why does 2010 have any reason to be any better.

a new year means another long and lonely year of fucking everything up